Cooking With Sincerity

Boiling over, over, what was
In time, gigantic smiles simmer down as chances thin
Remember when optimistic eyes brought hope
Chances for the extraordinary, unexpected bursts of joy
Coy to turbocharged to elevated to practical to maintenance to why
We’ll see later, right now goodbye, know the saddest tears are dried discontinued parts of us.
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Simmer until it’s absorbed, thrusted from every smile faded with stern looks tossed through passenger side glass, alas, we exhale here.
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Forgive the immature response, this, looking backwards walking ahead
I’ve prayed to have emotions declawed and medicated in regards to focusing on important matters
I’m not sure if this is a disorder my order seemingly completely ignorant and wasteful
Is God watching with his hands folded, patience tested, disappointed, marveling at my strides in incompetence
Cooking this meal in vain, eating it to the body’s hurt, going back for more.
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I’ll hide this dish, men aren’t supposed to work needs out openly, many jigsaw pieces mixed missed under bedroom pillows
I lay down and work on them when the world isn’t looking, hands quivering desperately seeking connections, attachment, acceptance, completeness
It’s nothing, you emotions, you liars, jesting mocking hopes and fears, dramatic joy sucking falsehoods seasoning thoughts
It is all together nothing.