We’ll pretend this is exactly how and where to be
But a lot has gone missing especially communication
Under water trying to reach an ever moving surface
It seems time in private is a crime and time praying isn’t mine
Staring out to sea full head but nothing when I speak if I wanted something surely words would slowly leak
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Change, change, change
Instead of laying in an open grave, waiting for my time to expire
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I beg you, Lord, for concentration
Scatterbrained daily, or is it lazy, idle
Asking for help then I look out windows
Is it a time for rest or for doing my best, we know
Silence between us
Swerving all over the road , I can’t see
Thought organization eludes me
Writing with the hope it’ll be some super strong stout rope to you
Because for whatever reason I’ve been quiet this season and it hurts
You know it hurts
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Purify
Clean up my life
Filter my eyes
I feel unclean and broken somewhere unseen
God, only you can heal my wounds
Feeling a little worthless although I have purpose
It’s like I’m back in class refusing to study, test scores ugly
Kidneys.